I know how it's like when you're studying and all you want to do is slam the book as you get so sick and tired of the endless hours spent staring at it. What's worst is when you can't understand a particular section and all you want to do is walk to the corner of the room and start banging your head at the wall.
I used to be the kid who would be at ease no matter what happened. Even if there was to be an earthquake, I would be as chill as a cucumber. That was when I was 12 years old. I realized that giving up was just going to make me regret. 5A's, that was the goal. Everyone was talking about it. But somehow, it never seemed to impact me. I used to play with my best friend at that time (who shall not be named). She got 5A's while I got 3A's and 2B's. The turning point was when her mom, came up to my mom to ask what I got when she saw me sobbing fervently, and proudly she said, "My daughter got 5A's".
That was the day I vowed to myself to never get a B in my life, in major examinations and well enough, I got 8A's for my PMR and 10A's for my SPM. I wanted my mom to be proud of me.
If I didn't give up at that time, if I strive for it, I know that I would have done better. Till this day, when anyone asks me what I got for my UPSR, I proudly say 3A's 2B's although it's nothing to be proud of, but it taught me a very important lesson, to never give up or fool around. Although, no one believes it when I tell them, cuz somehow, they think I'm really smart. (I don't think I am)
I know you really want everything to happen for real. Like good grades and all. You don't want it to be a reality in your dream land. It's hard. It takes hard work and perseverance. Sometimes, you're going to want to give up, but NEVER do that!
For all you know, the finish line is just around the corner. But you gave up too soon. You gave up before you saw the finish line. If you just went a little farther, you would have realized that the finish line was just a little way ahead.
Why give up on something when it's the only thing you want? For me, at this moment, the one thing that I want the most is to get straight A's for my A2. I want my A*'s so that soon, I'll receive my acceptance letter into my choice of university. I applied for four of them, all high requirement universities. The reason why, is simple. That is my motivation to push through.
I know if I don't do well, I'll have to stay back a year longer, which is not an option at all. This motivates me to study.
I've never heard of people who gave up. The person who gave up, was never heard off because he never made it far enough.
Many a times, people give up because they think, there's too much to do or there's so far to go or it's just too difficult. But, if you really want it that bad, then, the journey is not important. The lessons you learn along the journey may be. But the hardship of the journey is negligible.
I've formulated an equation for it.
GOAL = (JOURNEY - HARDSHIP + EXPERIENCE) x EFFORT
Remember, the beginning is always the hardest. When you decide on learning something new, it's going to be really tough. I still remember how I always wanted to learn to play the violin. But, I have really long fingers because I'm a pianist. So, it's really hard to play without my fingers crossing over clumsily. But, I learnt that practice makes perfect and if I were to give up, I would never be able to play another instrument.
I know how people say that if you suck, you should give up. But I say, if you love it, who cares what other people says about you. Just let them say whatever they want to say. Because, honestly, they don't live your life for you. No, they don't. If they try to tell you what to feel or try to tell you what they think and what you should follow, take a look at their life.
I personally feel that no matter what other people say and talk about, it really doesn't matter as long as you love it. Love it, live it, breathe it. That's my motto. (sub-motto actually)
The decisions you make, the chances you take, everything, you're going to live with it. So, why listen to other people's advice? I mean, you can listen. But, you have to be able to judge the bad and the good. No one can tell you how to feel or how you should feel, that's your own. If you feel that way, by all means, feel that way.
There's another 39 Days before the 1st paper for A2, if you haven't started studying yet, it's not too late. Start now. So what if you've got only a month left? Make good use of all the time you have. Don't spend too much time online. HEH, this goes to me also. :/
Be a believer, never give up. Believe that you will become what you want to be. Don't you dare give up on your dreams. Don't find for excuses. Don't find for reasons. Just do it. If you ever feel like giving up, remind yourself of all the times you held on to it for so long. No matter what you do, if that's exactly what you want, whatever people say, it doesn't matter. Just do it. Don't give up.
If you do decide to give up, one day, when you look back, don't put the blame on anyone else but yourself. Remember, the decisions you made to give up is yours entirely. Even if it was other people's decision, and you took it, you'd be forced to live with it.
I don't want to live my life filled with regrets and what if's. I want to live my life filled with "Oh Well's". At least, I've made my choices, however horrible it may seem. At that point in my life, that was exactly what I wanted and I will never regret my decisions.
Chase your dreams. It doesn't matter how slow you go, as long as you embark on your journey. Don't stop, just move forward. It's like a marathon. Even if you can't run anymore, even if you walk, you're ahead of the person who decides to stop. Just know that no matter how hard it feels at the moment, no matter what life throws at you, you have to yell back and say "I'm strong enough", put on a smile and face the world.
You may seem like an insignificant being in a world filled with more than 7 billion people. But you have to believe that one person can make all the difference in the world. Don't give up.
Study hard, study smart. Don't give up. Don't give up on anything. No matter how hopeless some things may seem, give it a chance and you'll know how worth it may be. Don't give up on anything.
Till my next post. xx